Testimony - You Never Let Go

If you have been following my blog since it started or know a bit about me you will know that my dear husband has a mental illness of depression with bouts of attempted suicide.
Over the years this has taken its toll on me.
Earlier this year I spent eleven days at Bryant Retreat and came home refreshed and strong, to live in victory with God and what life is for us.
A week later my husband told me he was gong to leave work and go possum trapping (for fur) or something he has done before, but there would be no phone call this time. I knew that meant he was going to kill himself. He also told me I had to find a “proper job” meaning he wanted me to work full time so he didn’t have to.
In the past I would have reacted with tears, pleading and ringing people to help etc.
But this time I felt a strong sense of Gods presence. I was able to ignore the manipulation of the illness. I didn’t cave in.
I was able to pray in a fighting way against what the illness was doing to my husband and our lives.
At one time I really thought enough was enough and I was not going to let this destroy me so I would walk away from it all. But I didn’t.
Hubby kept saying I needed to find a proper job but I was able to say with authority that I have a proper job and I do not want to hear that again. He didn’t.
He still works where he has for the past few years
He is seeing his psychiatrist and had his medication increased.
He has someone helping with his CV and finding him other work.
We are not out of the shadows quite yet but the light of Jesus has been with me all the way and I am so thankful I have the gift of faith to carry me through.
In church this morning I shared this testimony as the words of a song we sung seemed to speak of God in my life.

You Never Let Go by Matt Redman

Even though I walk through

the valley of the shadow of death

Your perfect love is casting out fear

And even when I’m caught in the middle

of the storms of this life

I won’t turn back

I know You are near

And I will fear no evil

For my God is with me

And if my God is with me

Whom then shall I fear?

Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:

Oh no, You never let go

Through the calm and through the storm

Oh no, You never let go

In every high and every low

Oh no, You never let go

Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming

for the heart that holds on

A glorious light beyond all compare

And there will be an end to these troubles

But until that day comes

We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Chorus:

Yes, I can see a light that is coming

for the heart that holds on

And there will be an end to these troubles

But until that day comes

Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

There is a piece of scripture I always hold on to: “I will never leave your nor forsake you.”

Joshua 1:5-9 (New International Version)

5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. 6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Hebrews 13:4-6 + 8(New International Version)

4Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral. 5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"..... 8Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

A Mad Tea Party

One of the Tirau WoW workshops was A Mad Tea Party. As it was late in the afternoon I was able to attend. It wasn't a workshop as such, that you learnt something new, but more a time of entertainment and fun.

We were seated at tables lavished with delicious food for a tea party, served on bone china tea service and fine linen. A group of four locals preformed "A Mad Tea Party" Chapter seven from Lewis Carroll's, Alice In Wonderland.

`Have some wine,' the March Hare said in an encouraging tone.

Alice looked all round the table, but there was nothing on it but tea. `I don't see any wine,' she remarked.

`There isn't any,' said the March Hare.

`Then it wasn't very civil of you to offer it,' said Alice angrily.

`It wasn't very civil of you to sit down without being invited,' said the March Hare. 

It was a lovely way to finish off a busy day of administrating for the whole weekend. I thought I would share a photo taken of me enjoying a glass of wine which unfortunately Alice never got to have.

Tirau WoW

Wow what a weekend. I have been so busy but had a good time.

Tirau WoW [Weekend of Workshops] is a weekend of lots of workshops of varying interests running from Friday to Sunday, some all weekend but some for just a few hours. Over the last five years I have helped a friend with her 'brain wave' to run this in our town. This weekend was the third one with over 100 workshops planned but they were reduced when numbers weren't as great as the other two years. The first two years I was the administrator for all the ticketing and it was very time consuming.

I found family just got put on the back burned for the two months before and by the end of the weekend I was exhausted. However this time I wasn't as involved but still helped to the build up and over the weekend but I was able to go around the town and pop into different workshops for a few minutes and even went to one for the full session today on healthy eating. It was based on vegetarian eating, exercises and reducing stress. 

Needless to say this may have been our last but part of me will be pleased to have 'my time' back.

 
Here we are set up for the weekend in the Tirau Dog Information Centre.


I am on the left, Sheryn whose brain child this all is, stands at the back, and Diane the lady who took it, is on the right.

Crochet Beanie

I have made many of these beanies for my daughters and they take about 5 and half hours ( I know because I can do one in a car trip from our house to Wellington)

I made up the pattern myself and have tried to "write" it up in case you would like to copy it.

I use about one skein of wool but some skeins may not go as far (depending on the type of wool or acrylic it is) so you might need a bit of an extra skein.

Crocheted Beanie

Abbreviations:
ch = chain
ss = slip stitch
dc = double crochet
tr = treble crochet
FT = False Treble = “1 dc; 2 ch”

You will need:
1 or 2 x 50gr balls of Double Knit wool
3.50 crochet hook.

Make 4 ch and ss into 1st ch to make a chain 'loop'

1st round: 1 FT, 13 tr into the chain 'loop'; ss into 2nd ch of FT.

2nd round: 1 FT into top of 2nd ch of FT ; * 1ch, 1 tr into top of next 2 tr *; repeat from * to *; to last tr; 1 ch, 1 tr into top of tr; ss into 2nd ch of FT.

3rd round: ss into 1st ch space; 1 FT, 4 tr into 1 ch space; *1 ch, miss 2 tr, 5 tr into next 1 ch space; * repeat from * to * to end; 1ch, ss into 2nd ch of FT

4th round: ss into top of next tr,1 FT into top of next tr; * 1 ch; miss 1 tr; 1 tr into next tr,1 ch, miss 1 tr, 1tr into 1 ch space, 1 ch, miss 1 tr. 1 tr into next tr *  repeat from * to *;  to end, omitting last tr at end then ss into 2nd ch of FT.

5th round: 1 dc into 2nd ch of FT(same FT as ss); *miss 1ch, 5 tr into next tr; miss 1 ch; dc into next tr *, repeat from * to * to end finishing with a ss into first dc (this will not quite meet up and you will have a spare tr from the last round.)

6th round: 1 FT into dc * 3 ch; miss 2 tr, 1 dc into next tr; 3 ch, miss 2 tr; 1 tr into next dc *; repeat from * to * 3 ch, miss 2 tr; 1dc into next tr, 3 ch; ss into 2nd ch of FT.

7th round: 1 FT into 2nd ch of FT; * 1 ch, miss 1 ch; 1tr into next ch, 1 ch miss 1 ch; 1 tr into next dc, 1 ch, miss 1 ch; 1tr into next ch, 1 ch miss 1 ch; 1 tr into next tr*; repeat from * to *to end finishing with; 1 ch, miss 1 ch; 1 tr into next ch, 1 ch miss 1 ch; 1 tr into next dc, 1 ch, miss 1 ch; 1tr into next ch, 1 ch miss 1 ch; ss into 2nd ch on FT.

8th round: 1 dc into 2nd ch of FT(same FT as ss); *miss 1ch, 5 tr into next tr; miss 1 ch; dc into next tr *, repeat from * to * to end finishing with, miss 1ch, 5 tr into next tr; miss 1 ch, ss into first dc.

9th round: 1 FT into dc * 2 ch; miss 2 tr, 1 dc into next tr; 2 ch, miss 2 tr; 1 tr into next dc *; repeat from * to *to end finishing with; 2 ch, miss 2 tr; 1dc into next tr, 2 ch; ss into 2nd ch of FT.

10th round: 1 FT into 2ch space (from last round)  * 2ch, miss 2ch, 1 tr in dc, 2ch, miss 2ch, 1 tr into next tr,*repeat from * to *to end finishing with, 2ch, miss 2ch, 1 tr in dc, 2ch, miss 2ch, ss into 2nd ch of FT.

11th round: 1 dc into 2nd ch of FT(same FT as ss); *miss 2ch, 5 tr into next tr; miss 2 ch; dc into next tr *, repeat from * to * to end finishing with miss 2ch, 5 tr into next tr; miss 2 ch, ss into first dc.
 
Rounds 9 to 11 now form the pattern. Continue repeating these three rounds until the length you require finishing on an 11th round to form a scalloped edge.

Chocolate Oat Dumps

And you may well ask why the word "dumps".
Well they may look questionable!! but you literally dump them on a tray to set.
Sarah my third daughter asked for some rolled oat recipes for her while she was pregnant, to help boast her for breast feeding her beautiful baby girl. I have no idea where I got this recipe or if I even adapted it from something. Its another easy make that does not involve heating up the oven. However they do need to be kept in a container in the fridge.

Ingredients

2 cups Sugar
1/2 cup Milk
100 gr Butter
1 tsp Vanilla Essence (you could use orange if you wanted a Jaffa taste)
3 cups of Rolled Oats (the sort you use to make porridge with)
1/4 cup Cocoa

Bring to the boil in a large pot the sugar, milk, butter and vanilla. Boil on medium heat for 3 minutes.
Remove from the heat and add the rolled oats, and cocoa. Mix quickly and thoroughly.
Drop - 'dump' - tablespoon amounts onto a greaseproof paper lined tray and leave to set in a cool place.
When cold keep in a container in the fridge.
(You could use less sugar but you would need to taste test first and possibly boil for a bit longer)
Like the recipe below this post it's another one that can be made last thing at night and it is ready in the morning.

Honey Rice Bubbles

Sometimes there is a need for something to be made for school lunches and I find this is a quick easy snack that can be made in about 10 mins and you don't need to heat up the oven. And when it is late Sunday night and you just want to go to bed you can make it and in the morning it is already to be cut up.

Ingredients

125gr Butter
1/2 cup Sugar
1 Tbsp Honey
1 Tbsp Golden Syrup
4 -5 cups Rice Bubbles (puffed rice cereal)

Bring to the boil the butter, sugar, honey and syrup in a very large pot and "soft" boil for 5 minutes (watch it and stir occasionally so it doesn't burn).
Mix in rice bubbles quickly and thoroughly so they are all coated (see the reason for a large pot!)
Press into a large tin (I use a 21 cm square tin) that is lined with greased baking paper (Butter paper is good).
Cut when cold.
Keep in an airtight container.

The Atonement Child

Another of Francine Rivers books, the Atonement Child from my daughter's collection I have just read.
There is something about the way Francine writes that I find it very hard to put the book down once I have got into it.
It seems there is always something else happening that you want to know how it 'pans' out. This book was the same.
It is the story of a young woman who seems to have it all going for her but one night is raped and the issues this raises, the way she is treated, and the reaction from friends, family and those with in the industry of pro and anti-life certainly have an input to the situation.
But over all, Gods hand is seen to work in all the lives of this book.
So easy to read but so moving.